Monday, August 29, 2011

finding it very hard..


To concentrate on anything at the moment. I've had this retarded migraine for about *thinking* almost a month now. No joke. Been to the ER. Been to hell (which I think I'm still in.. my eyes hurt, my neck hurts, my whole BEING hurts) and still I can't figure out how people can mistake a simple headache from a migraine. I think it took every ounce of control to NOT throw something large and potentially lethal at the co-worker who was like "maybe its a slow aneurysm". Really? How can I say "shut up as polite as possible without shoving a handful of lyme in his face? PUFF! BURN! maybe it'll reach his eyes and make me THAT much happier.

not really. I don't wish this pain on anyone.

please pray that this ends soon.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Musings with music


It's the end of July, and I honestly keep wondering where the summer has gone. It's easy to wonder that when you've sat inside an office in a basement, coding, or waiting to code on an assignment..when in all honesty what I've been doing has been a little bit of this, and that, making sure I'm learning more and more since Steve Jobs has made his disdain for Flash and Adobe prevalent, thus making my whole world turn upside down, work-wise. Constant headaches, unfortunately. I've been picking up a lot of side work lately, but this too comes with it's own guilt and headaches and time limits, and constraints on my life, meaning, less sleep or less time with my daughter. Since I refuse to give up the less time with my daughter.. the less sleep it is.
It's odd, when you think about it.. the impact of one persons actions on the whole of another. What someone does truly DOES affect what happens to you, or someone you know, and not normally by means you can control. Makes me think of karma in a whole new way. Almost as if, yes, you do a good deed, and it's not that YOU get something good out of it, other than the self satisfaction of a 'good deed'.. but someone somewhere gets something good out of it. Not necessarily you, but someone, somewhere. Just a bit of musing.
Alright.. now on a TOTALLY different direction, while out on the web, check some of these places out out!!
My Drunk Kitchen (totally hilarious)
Dooce (a SAHM mommy blogger with 2 kids and 2 doggies.. and totally sarcastic.)

have a great day and I'm gonna try and write some more, because writing makes me feel a little better, here and there